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BYE. LEAVING THIS PLACE FOR GOOD.

I am getting better offers everyday....now i am going to embark on many small overseas trips to cover huge events....places like beijing, thailang, swizterland, and etc....my dream of travelling round the world with the paycheck from my most passionate photography is coming true....wat lacks now is the freedom to shoot wat i like when i am there..i guess that will only happen when i get my butt out of army...

still peeling from the redang trip....now burping after too much beer after a late night of work at the print house....things that are going to happen includes me going to start up a creative house with my big bro... ... suggested me setting up a digital print shop in Canada...haa...sounds good..but i guess things will be different if i did just that...its not impossible but its still a little hazy for me..thanks Cgot for the idea..

Now all i want to do is to concentrate on the things at hand....like pampering my sister after her o's...bring her out for shoots and stuff....and also cherish the people whom i love....my brother just got into the army and he signed the air force contract..a contract which i would have loved and hated...

I am moving out from my old estate too..in a matter of two months latest....cant wait to get my ass out of this place...new place..new life..and old memories that i want to chuck are outta here and burnt down with the old house....

Excuse me..i am not someone who is heartless or who refuses old memories..i am just exactly the opposite and tats why i think the time has come for me to move on...and i gladly do..with a new life ahead after my departure from military life after two and a half years of retarded productivity...i am finally embarking on live's true journey..so who should hold me back..die...

Teaching is fun currently and i also enjoy lots of photography..have been procasitinating on sending my camera for servicing..especially when i have passed that neat 50000 clicks on the shutter..anymore..the camera might just give up on me...irritating spots are appearing on my lenses..i clean them everyday like how i would wipe my butt after crap...but it still stinks....so i have to send it for servicing one of these coming days...but i guess that will only happen when i am happy with the few thousand shots i have accumulated and require time to process the photos...

take care..

Fianlly got what i want and gone on a trip to forget things i want to chuck in my life....not very successful though, but one thing for sure, i have made many new friends in this short period of time and most of the stress harboured in me have gone away....

I shake my head constantly when i remeber seeing people blame others for their own mistakes....i remember people flare up at others when they themselves commit the same fault...i remember people who try so hard to be someone they are not and are always in constant denial...pretending to be strong...sad...but i guess they just have to exist because there will be some they are not...

The stars were incredible at the island where i was....hidden ones suddenly come full view and i cant see the usual stars tat i used to see outside my window....the waves that break against the shore....my time is of no importance....things just came to a slow still at the island..and ironically...it went by pretty fast too..

the last four days have been a huge vast difference as compared to the days before the trip...hell broke loose with screaming datelines..and exploitive clients....it ust pissed me off when i hear people complaining about things that are not even important...at least for now....

it pissed me off when i was at the print shop for three whole days and nights...and during that time..i saw a friend being bullied by her working peers....she was told to do a 1:1 scale for a bus ad.... hello people, when will you ever use your brains that the programs are there so we can work in scales?

She complained a lot because the computer just crashes..and she was using a G5!! Makes no difference even if it was a laptop or a desktop or even the world's fastest computer...you know nuts on how to exploit the prgram..you are screwed...blame yourself....

well..those were some issues that i cant stand....other shows of hypocrisy...worse ones of those who think they have become different because they have gone thru a bit...sickens me to my stomach...another of which i cant stand is...yes ..we are all stressed people...but is there a need to behave like a monkey with crocs chomping on its ass? No doubt for sure...we all have every right to show the audience how sad our life is...but there is still no real need for such a melodrama...and this would go out to the designers wannabes or already designers....wake up...this is the type of lfe we have to lead...the expectations our industry demands...you dont like it...just get lost...dont choke the line...

Not much photos taken anyway during the trip....about 145 photos...aint going to choke this place...in fact...i am considering on leaving deviantart for good...the thought had always been there for quite some time now..

why? I have not progressed anymore...no comments i have gotten were constructive at all....felt this was like getting to be a huge show for electronic affection....yes..i do make really good friends here...and they will step over to the real world as friends...i hate how this place becomes a huge signboard for indirect messages..tell me in the face and bring it on.....

i am still considering though....i must find a really compelling reason to walk away...the most logical one so far would be the lack of learning anything new....sighz.....we'll see...

Okays, its been a really long time since i spat here...dump my works in here or even spend any real time here...

all this while i was busy trying to get my life back from people who were trying to steal it from me....i am sick of getting jobs that are on grounds of favour....little money and lots of effort...and worse thing is..i dont learn shit from such things....favours like that only make me stagnate..so if you want a favour to be done from me....it should be something that i have not done before..or else..please fark at least three million light years from me...thanks...

I have been up to many things lately, well...to update those who really care...and bother like my cool friends , , well....i have been teaching alot lately, setting up many PS lessons to cater to some people...sad to say..some of them play me out by not turning up...and i am not earning nuts from this...just doing a favour for the community to come up with better works and ahve a greater understanding for photoshop...well..these days..even doing charity you get shit...sighz

well...other than that...i am trying to coordinate all the shit tat is coming in..all the personal favours that i dont owe....the school magazine for one...free design and still asking for farking low price on print...yah i can...i print on toilet paper...and those bastards are already getting sponsors..minimum of 1k per advert....some even go up to 5k.....and the damn magazine is 3/4 filled with adverts..so educate me..

best part of the gripe is this...i was denied every shit as a student..now taht i am in need...i am suddenly termed as a very good student, or one of the most respected people in the alumni..hello..i am not even in the alumni you piece of shit.

beyond that..i am just tired...so if you want to add a burden on my back while i am trying my best to shed off weight....PLEASE please please go and fark someone else...

sorry for my vulgarities..i am just so filled with angst and hatred and anger...

well..on a side note....i have loads of photos not uploaded...and i would say they are y personal favourites...the more mature species of the evolution of my creations....so just hang on to your seats...i will be back with much better photos..

Meanwhile..i will continue fagging those asses who try to bring me down...

Things are turning well and some are not turning at all..and some are just falling apart.

Just Sunday, I watched a man die in my face...witnessed a car accident with the guy rolled under the vehicle...not a pretty sight.

On the same Sunday, just about a few hours earlier, was at Sentosa watching absolutely ghastly lechers go a gal...notti notti..aint wat you thinking...just a bunch of photographers firing away at two bikini clad models....LOL...

As for me, I was more interested in the kids...the sky...the things at the beach....

Recently, I have been trying to arrange a Photoshop lesson for those who are interested to learn...not only did i not want to make money out of this..i have to lose money cos some people just have to pull out last minute..there is a sudden collective desire to go overseas and work..mmm..the conspiracy theory...

I am cool though...let it be...